Here’s how I’m really crazy.

Simply put, it is that I think I might be able to do something about it (the future of the world). There is clearly no reason to hope for this.

And hope is all there is.

I have numerous versions of ways I might effect the changes I think will be necessary to save Gaia. But they are terribly naive. All require more personal bravery than I think I possess, and, besides, all the while the timer is running.

I don’t mean the timer on Earth and its impending disaster. I mean the timer on my own life. In any case, there is little chance the former will run out in a time frame  even noticeable in the span of the latter.

Virtually all the versions of “me saving the world” involve suicide well timed and dramatic (the goal is always attention grabbing). But I fully  expect to die on the way to my suicide. To do it otherwise would require belief in one’s own logical abilities stronger than logic can justify.

I wonder whether this is somehow bound up in the Godel barrier.

I’m also torn by the knowledge that I know absolutely nothing about what it is all about. Reality, immortality, morality–every important question there is–defies completely my ability to find an answer. That I seem compelled to continue the search is, surely, a  form of insanity.

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4 Responses to Here’s how I’m really crazy.

  1. Dallas Smith says:

    This post is best answered by the serenity prayer, which says (approximately) that god should grant one the strength to change the things that can be changed, to accept the things that cannot be changed, and the wisdom to know the difference.

    • Good point, Dallas…”God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

      Knowledge of what we are powerless over is a key to not only serenity, but to empowerment–meaning, we can let go of those things we don’t have power over and focus on those we do.

      Thanks for this reminder!

      • George says:

        that’s all as may be, but none of it is much to me. on the one hand, re-incarnation means little to me, as it was not in my up-bringing and it makes no sense to me in the face of the potential, as i see it, of the death of Gaia. on the other, having seen the consequences of doing nothing makes intolerable the option of not hoping that my actions might move enough peopple to act. that’s the only reealistic hope i see: something might actually get done. the craziness lies mostly in thinking that i might have impact on that many people.

  2. Hmmm…does sound like a dilemma, George.

    What happens when you add in the factor of reincarnation? Maybe you can make a contribution to saving Gaia, but it only begins in this body and continues in another?

    ‘~)

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